Saying goodbye to 2018

So here we are nearly at the end of another year with the hopes of the next year being 'our year' well I'm pretty sure that's how I felt this time last year, feeling excited to make changes and fresh starts. Most of us plan on shifting the unwanted weight (that is still number 1 on my new years list) or quitting our bad habits.. more exercise? I did not complete any of these goals this year, I gave them a whirl but 2018 was not my year.

Since being diagnosed to be honest ms has kicked my ass! Daily the pain and fatigue continues to grind me down, its hard on my family and friends and its killing me off emotionally. 7 months ago my life was totally different yes I was tired but not like this, my days are spent sleeping for hours on end and then waking up feeling like I've been hit by a bus. I feel lazy and pretty useless, I cancel most of my plans because I just don't have the energy to get out of bed let alone have fun.. I miss out on a lot and its not because I don't want to take part because there's nothing id like more but sometimes I just cant.

It can be a lonely old world. I don't think at 22 I was prepared for having an auto immune disease with no cure. The last half of 2018 has been more doom and gloom than id hoped for but that's the amazing thing about new years its the time for fresh starts and new goals no matter how big or small! Its the time to put the past behind us and focus on the future.

I've been cooped up off work sick since 23rd October and I finally go back in the new year... am I excited? YES I AM. I cant wait to feel like an adult again and be apart of work place, see all my clients and my friends at work. Talk about work related things and to talk about problems that aren't my own for a change!

I feel like this year I lost a huge part of myself and gained ms. Id rather swap back, id like to have my confidence back, I want to laugh more and I really want to learn to not let this disease consume me and my energy. So I'm mega happy to turn my back on 2018 don't get me wrong I've made some amazing memories this year and ill treasure them but I'm ready for the next year.

2019 GOALS

. Lose the bloody weight girl

. Smile more

. Forget the little things

. Forgive

. Perhaps quit smoking (see how we do)

. Live a healthier lifestyle

. Start knitting

. Spend more time with family and friends

. STAY POSITIVE

I am hopeful to take 2019 by the horns and smash the shit out of it! Back to work and back to slimming world, back into a healthy routine for my body and mind its just what I need. I'll be spending new years eve at home with my man playing board games waiting for the midnight fireworks on tv. Perfect way to end this year and start the next one.. now until then I shall continue to stuff my face full of choccy and eat baileys and ice cream!

SEE YOU ALL NEXT YEAR!!

T.xo